I'm running out of limitations.  I am experiencing such lovely, transcendent peace.  I wish I could share it with everyone.  Oh, wait...

I can!

I often tell people that the universe is a generous place.  I have a new way of saying it-  Everything in your life is co-created by you and Divine Wisdom for your immediate benefit.

Everything... as in every single thing you meet, perceive, experience, think, feel, lose, gain, transform, transmute, exchange, etc.  That kind of everything.

In your Life... as in the life you live, the life you chose to pursue, the life you are playing full on or hiding from or pretending to control or whatever.  Your life.  It never belonged to anyone else.  You get to choose now.  And now.  And again, now.  Your Life.

Is Co-Created...  You don't have to do it alone.  You never could, anyway.  You have help, you have access to more than you would believe.  And you let it or don't let it.  How much you partner with the universe is entirely up to you.

By You and Divine Wisdom...  It doesn't matter what you call it, as long as you call it into your life on a regular basis.  All the glorious angels, gods and goddesses, animal totems, ascended masters, every manner of helpful spirit being is just hoping you'll give them a chance to play in your life with you.  They all respect the first Law of Humanity- Free Will.  Invite them into your life.  And even if you don't call any of them, your own connection to the All Knowing is held in the upper chakras.

For Your Immediate... Not someday, not when you get a chance to review or meditate or journal or talk it over with a friend, though all of these can help.  Immediate, right now, you feel in your body, the wisdom of your immensely powerful deep self is expressing itself all the time.  Listen to yourself, trust your growing, learn to discern the difference between what you'd like to be the truth and what you truly believe.  As soon as you find out what that inner truth is, you go back to the second bit- it's yours and you get to choose about it.  Keep it?  if it serves you.  Change it?  If it's time. 

Benefit.  As in what's absolutely best for you and your journey.  You are sooo loved!  If you could feel what angels feel toward humans, you would cry tears of grateful joy.  Let it come into your heart, the knowledge that you are a divine spark of light, come to earth to illuminate and inspire.  Your courage, your willingness, your love, your truth, your wholeness, and your beauty are all so spectacular.  Let them shine!  By accepting the gifts of a loving Is, you open the space for others to do the same.

Namaste

I got two great invitations, today.  One for a party hosted by Joe Vitale, the other for a housewarming of a dear friend from the Spiritualist church.  Somehow, neither of them called to me.  It was odd.  I am definitely needing more social time, especially child free social time.  So why was I staying home when these two opportunities literally called me on the phone?

I trust, though.  I trust the unfolding of the universe and my own inner alignment with that greater truth.  So I gently said no to both invitations and remained curious about the outcome.

I puttered around the house, cleaning some, painting some, and of course, checking in on my communities via the internet.  I recalled that a friend was looking for housesitting gigs, and I hopped over to the forum pages for Bodychoir.  No calls for housesitting.  There was a listing for tribal moon drumming.  Sounds cool, neh?

I had to read it through several times.  It was hastily posted, not organized, and clearly genuine.  As I got to the heart of it, I felt my spirit enliven my senses with an undeniable rush of inspiration.  It's a dance event, performance and drumming and community strengthening all at once.  And they need costuming.

Baby, I'm good at a lot of things- but the only people who costume better than I do are at Mardi Gras and in Cirque du Soleil!  I love to dress up, I love to help others dress up, I love body paint and wild expression of primal soul urges- oh, yeah, I get it now!  I'm not going to those other things because the universe had something better in mind for me!

I called the organizer and she was nearly breathless with gratitude.  Told me how she'd been putting out a vibe for costuming help.  I guess I got it.  Can't spend a lot of time sharing details, I've got some sewing to do.  I'll share this, though.  My costume is very snakey.  Snakeskin dress, green cloak with ribbons, my best long curly wig.  I'm all about the transformation.

Love to you, whoever you are.
Crow

It's so funny having two blogs and ignoring them both.  I had actually forgotten that I had ever posted to this one at all.  Truthfully, I'm so busy living my life, I rarely take the time to write it down, anymore.  But once a year is good review.

I re-read my own writing, the last post, more than a year ago.  It's interesting how accurate my intentions were.  I've moved out of my ex husband's home.  I've got my own space, I'm managing my own finances.  I'm on the cusp now, between self-sufficiency and abundance.  It's nice to see that I manifested what I intended, without having to push or pull on myself. 

Lately, I've also become very clear that I no longer support the use of force.  I'm not bullying intellectually, or manipulating emotionally, I don't believe in pushing beliefs, and I honor that all are learning whatever they most need to learn in the moment.  I don't have to save or educate anyone, because the universe is always looking out for all of us.  I am available to help when asked.  I haven't withdrawn.  I'm just not pushing anything anymore.

Especially, I'm not pushing on myself.  All the outward manifestations of force I see in myself and others, naturally they are turned inward as well.  I've been aware for a long time that "should" and "have to"  are just as false as "shouldn't" and "can't."  I've given them all up for Lent.  And all their ilk. 

I release obligation, may it become honoring. 

I release illusions of scarcity, may they become awareness of prosperity. 

I release judgments, may they heartfelt appreciation for the many beauties of every human spirit.

Namaste,
Crow

You all know the saying- be careful what you wish for...

I think it's a good thing to keep in mind.  I wished anyway, I think after careful contemplation.  And it's coming into being.  I wished for visibility.

I could still run away and hide.  Make excuses about how important it is that I bury myself in homeschooling Zander, or play a new video game, or sit back and paint and be happy with a moderate to low income...

But I have a tremendous set of gifts, and if this isn't a time in need of guidance, then there has never been one.  How can I, in good conscience, do anything but step forward and pick up some of the load?

Answer~ I can't.  I'm too good at seeing the problems, and I'm too good at seeing solutions.  I'm done hiding, and I'm actuallizing my whole self for powerful restructuring.  Look out world.  I am officially unleashed.

I choose to generate gentleness to balance my potency.  I choose to create financial self sufficiency, and then financial abundance.  I choose to create a support network for myself that honors my path and feeds my spirit.

So be it, and so it is.

Namaste, Crow

What strange simplicity to presume that the world can change, but even stranger any assumption that it won't.  Change is the most common constant.  And thanks to all faces and names of deity that change is with us, for by goddess we sure need it!

I make change in small ways and large.  I choose change in myself, whenever I find a gap in my wholeness.  I think others do the same, though at differing rates and with various levels of commitment.  Perception must always come first, though.  No problem can be solved unless it is first acknowledged.  And how do people in our stressed out world find a moment to contemplate their reality, whether personal or global?

On a labyrinth, of course.  (All right, I may be biased...)  The stillness of mind that is the goal of meditation has almost always eluded me.  But when I walk the labyrinth, my body is occupied, and my mind is somehow freed in ways that sitting has never brought me.  So naturally, I have set out to share!

Last Wednesday, July 25th of 2006,  I completed the first labyrinth in a public park in Austin, Texas.  There will be more, I'm sure.  Maybe grander, maybe with more hooplah.  But this is my work, made more than halfway by my own hands, and I love it.  If you get to Austin, come visit and walk the path.  It's in Greenbrier Park at 2810 Slaughter Lane.

May you always return to Center.

Namaste,
Crow